Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup.
Daily life, for all its pedestrian routine, still takes me by surprise. It seems that the things you have to do invariably elbow out the things you want to do, if somewhat rudely and unapologetically. And you are left at the end of the year with the sore awareness of time passing you by.
I admit - I slack, and like many, I let life plod me along. Which is why, the end of the year is a very special time for me. Apart from the happy festivities and the carte blanche to shop, it is a time to take stock. This time of the year inevitably brings along a dose of the dismals, too.
As I inventory the experiences in 2006, I ponder on the challenges I faced, and the friends that came and went. Some held on, others let go. Their stay, each unique, whether long or short, has shaped the person I am today. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.
More often than not, I think about the friendships I failed to salvage. I still cannot say fervently that I made the right choice. But when it comes to friends, I don't believe in long good-byes, so, til we meet again. For those who stuck around, a toast to another year of friendship. (:
My mental list of New Year resolutions is filled with places to visit, things to do and above all, new experiences to be savoured and relished. I wanted to get a headstart this year, so I made my lists early. It brings me with a tingly jolt of excitement and anticipation for the coming year.
Singapore,
2006 is over.
&
that, is a
bold statement in every literal sense.
PS. Nic just doubled the dosage of dismals I'm experiencing by playing a very emotional rendition of The Beatles' Across The Universe. What an apt song to play as I pen this closing entry.
Ah, sweet melancholy. Fuck you Nic.