Ridicule that follows the Vestiges of Truth.

48. Bye.

2007-04-07T04:08:00.000+08:00

First, sorry for letting my blog lapse and leaving the site to collect digital cobwebs.

I intend to begin posting my thoughts again, elsewhere.

-

Yes Darling, provocative isn't it?

47. Wow, it's 2007.

2007-01-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

Mother Nature & Mr Sunny gave me a lobster pink sunburn to kickstart the New Year.

On top of that, I spent New Year's Eve bawling my eyes out because I gave up my Topshop/Miss Selfridge/Warehouse/Diva/Ben Sherman/Dorothy Perkins 20% discount voucher. And I got half-seas-over honey green tea, mahjong and shrooms chicken I lovingly baked for Nicky love.

Then it's quiet doubleton goodness for us both on New Year day itself.

-

Oh God, I want my pictures back. I am definitely not taking well to having MY stuffs deleted from the computer. For the record, it isn't even YOUR computer. Next time, keep your fingers jammed in your asshole.

Anyway.

I bought myself 6 items from Body Shop. 6 heavenly, God-sent items. Clay masks, body mist, moisturizer...you name it! Nic would've flipped if she saw the total bill. Shopping with no strings attached, It felt SO good! It's the best thing, next to food, naturally. Speaking of which, dinner at Oscar's on Monday! And camp at East Coast tomorrow night of which I am so not looking forward to. Ok, bye, we're going for supper now, I think.

Shit, I'm pissed.

46. The New Year Entry.

2006-12-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup.

Daily life, for all its pedestrian routine, still takes me by surprise. It seems that the things you have to do invariably elbow out the things you want to do, if somewhat rudely and unapologetically. And you are left at the end of the year with the sore awareness of time passing you by.

I admit - I slack, and like many, I let life plod me along. Which is why, the end of the year is a very special time for me. Apart from the happy festivities and the carte blanche to shop, it is a time to take stock. This time of the year inevitably brings along a dose of the dismals, too.

As I inventory the experiences in 2006, I ponder on the challenges I faced, and the friends that came and went. Some held on, others let go. Their stay, each unique, whether long or short, has shaped the person I am today. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.

More often than not, I think about the friendships I failed to salvage. I still cannot say fervently that I made the right choice. But when it comes to friends, I don't believe in long good-byes, so, til we meet again. For those who stuck around, a toast to another year of friendship. (:

My mental list of New Year resolutions is filled with places to visit, things to do and above all, new experiences to be savoured and relished. I wanted to get a headstart this year, so I made my lists early. It brings me with a tingly jolt of excitement and anticipation for the coming year.

Singapore, 2006 is over.

& that, is a bold statement in every literal sense.

PS. Nic just doubled the dosage of dismals I'm experiencing by playing a very emotional rendition of The Beatles' Across The Universe. What an apt song to play as I pen this closing entry.

Ah, sweet melancholy. Fuck you Nic.

45. Our third Christmas.

2006-12-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

I know I'm Gay like that.
WHAT THE HELL, I LOVE YOU!

ON 051206
A couple of photomontage(s) in place of the words I could write about my Birthday.

I can't deny that I simply adore x infinity the gifts the ladies and the girl showered me. A BIG thank you ya'll!

Hazel's chosen victim to practise her 'Heimlich Manoeuver' on.

ON FOOD

I've been spending all my shekels on grEAT trEATs. (:
Steamboat, Outback's, Muthu's Curry, Hong Kong Cafe...just to name a few.

Just a couple of the many (a HUGE selection!!!) decadent delights at HK Cafe...the rest of the photos, I deleted unintentionally.

ON CHRISTMAS
Ah yes, whole of Orchard road is aglow, almost every shop you set foot in is humming snazzy tunes. Christmas has a way of reaching your living room and hauling you out into a world of irrepressible cheer.

Merry Christmas!
No, I'm not too late. Remember, there's 12 days of Christmas. (:

44. The forty-fouth entry.

2006-12-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

If you want to know what the two weeks hiatus has done for me, it has only resulted in an aching body, a tired mind and a weak heart.

3 more days to THE Birthday. Why, I wish I was a born a Royalty. Then I can have a week's celebration, or maybe even a month.

Daydreams aside, I'm hoping reality don't fail me. Hopefully I'll be on my way to Langkawi or Indo for my post-birthday holiday. Soon. White sandy beach, full body massage, reflexology, blah blah yada. I'm reminding myself that all these good stuffs are worth every excruciating second of wait. Which explains why I'm still in a great mood. (:

43. 2nd Anniversary, Love.

2006-11-19T13:31:00.000+08:00

I am not deliciously saucy.

A cordate apple, much to our delight.

The crazy sessions we used to have every weekend. Why not today? (:

At Conrad.

On 18th November 2006.

You light the match, I'll stick around.

2nd Anniversary was spent with me tossing in bed with a throbbing headache and Nic snuggled into a tight ball of sleep. That, made us both too lazy to go out. Then the impromptu decision to head down to JB in the evening for a quick dinner and back. That, accompanied by great company and good food kept me satiated throughout the night.

Yummy yummy Chee cheong fun!

From this...

to this.

Well it's clear I'm going to get nothing done so I might as well get off the computer where I have about a 5% higher chance of getting a life. This is because if I get off the computer, I will move around. Hence, having more kinetic energy hence according to Collision theory there is more chance of a life colliding with my active site and breaking me down into a lively, interesting, hardworking molecule while the rest of me gets turned into urea and becomes wee-wee.

It's hot out there.

42. Every little good thing.

2006-10-29T02:13:00.000+08:00

MEE GORENG & SAUSAGE.

To every little good thing in life.

Here's to mine!

ON GLUTTONY
I've been stuffing my face since the 23rd. Lemongrass, NYDC, Thai Express, Pastamania, Ben & Jerry's, Big O and Buffet @ Goodwood Park Hotel. ALL that in a week! I'm informing you that my arteries are clogging right now, I am dying, and that I am a blissful fatty Betty.

6 pints in total and we're down to 3.

ON FRIENDS
Kudos to the beloved Arty Farty girls, Hazel and Nic, and to NYDC's sister establishment - Big O.

This is my second visit and I'm still very much in love with it. Happiness is to wake up to someone asking me down for a slice of 'Count Chocola'.

Although its dessert menu somewhat echoes NYDC's collection, with bistro pricing, endearing pet portraits and a slightly less excited atmosphere than the NYDC outlets (I personally do not like NYDC. Elephancino was BLAH). That aside, Big O's such a pleasant nook to grab a bite. Thumbs up!

A Dessert lover's pradaise indeed!

ON RETAIL THERAPY
Nic got me a top and bag and I love the fuck out of it. Ooh the bag!!! It's orgasmic! Haha, so, I unloaded a bunch of bread downtown and now I'm left with crumbs for survival. (:

-

I know we're all souls just trying to connect but we're all left searching on our own.

Yours truly.

41. Another photo moment.

2006-10-15T05:34:00.000+08:00

I'm apparently dead.

Considering that Nic has to update MY blog for me and 90%
of any socialization I participate in is during work, it's no wonder
people think I'm dead.

This morning I woke up with a grunt and frown on my face and had
my monthly "URGH! I HATE EVERYTHING, OHHHH EVERYTHING
IS AWFUL, MY LIFE IS RUINED" cry. Which means I'm due for my period.

I finally got around to upload the following pictures - from trips to whatever knick-knacks.

01. Something I whipped up for Ee Leng after
reading Nora Roberts' In The Garden Trilogy.

"Take a walk in the garden. Pull a weed, smell a flower.
See if it doesn't make you smile." -Nora Roberts.

02. My baking is so terrible, even the cat passed out.

03. Genting with Nic & Co.

Spot me!

The ride that got my adrenaline pumping MAD.
Nevertheless, one of the most satisfying ride, ever.

/downtown KL

Candyfloss flavoured ice-cream is THE BOMB.

04. Batam with the Gang!

Chris, Dad, Me and Vennie (:

Traditional goreng Pisang, a MUST in Indo!

The 'Kueh-kueh' man.

-

Finally, a short update from yours truly. And a last minute face-lift for
my blog. Yes, I'm alive though I'm barely around. Forgive me for being
inactive most of the time around the net. I guess the older I get, the more
reality and responsibilities I have to have and take. It's not the same like
3 years ago when I was practically treating online life as one of my responsibilities.

To math.

40. Quick update.

2006-09-27T15:46:00.000+08:00

Hello and welcome.

I'm blogging on behalf of Bell as she's been busy at the moment.

Just a quick update on her daily life:

1) She's dreading work everday.
2) She's very thankful to have found a place at Nart's (Cause she's very near me!)
3) She's hoping that she would get the other job and leave the current one for good.
4) She's been having tuition for her Math. (Let's pray that she passes this time round)
5) Weekends are her favourite days of the week. (Cause she stays over at my place)
6) She's been taking good care of herself.
7) She's less grumpy now. (HAHA)
8) She went to the mooncake thing with me at Taka.
9) She's met hypocrites. ( Well, struggling with them)
10) She hasn't got the time to blog so here I am blogging for her.

Okay, I hope that's enough information for you guys. Nevertheless,
I'll ask her to update whenever's possible alright?

And if you guys think she's worth your two cents, do drop her an SMS to keep her updated with the 'world'. Just a reminder: 'For those who haven't got her new number (she's no longer using the 9748 one), do get it from me online. I'll see whether you're worthy of it.' HAHA! Kidding.

Cheerios,
Nic

39. The eve of moving.

2006-08-31T02:48:00.000+08:00

Let the poets struggle to describe your heart
Your art of love and your love of art

Hola!

What have I been up to?

I've been hard at work, visitng the elderly, flying kites, walking dogs,
babysitting, watching movies, shopping, making new friends, sewing,
exploring the world and even took up yoga.

When I say all of that junk, I mean I've been basically doing nothing.

/Hot off the press - Stupid Life News
Not necessarily a big story, but you would have known by now that
I'm moving into Nart's - by 1st September it was to be, but I moved the
schedule up a day, so maybe her dream was right; that I moved in earlier
to 'surprise' her. Hell no, it's merely for convenience's sake.

Moving out of Charlene's wasn't a right off the bat decision. It doesn't
take Einstein to realize that being 'housemates' was wrecking our friendship.
We each have our peeves, and I guess we didn't take to living under one roof
very well. No, I don't wish upon her a painful death. I think I made the right
decision, moving out would give us both the distance needed for our friendship
to grow, again. Are we on agreement here? I hope I'm not on my way to wreck
yet another friendship.

As yet, I have a couple of tasks at hand to complete, one of which is to post
a 'I-HAVEN'T-FALLEN-OFF-THE-FACE-OF-EARTH' entry to reaffirm my
existence. Afterwhich, I can't promise to focus more on the blog or anything.
Not until I'm comfortably settled in my new room/home.

/tomorrow
If the weather holds up steady, I have plans to walk to Nic's house after
unpacking my stuffs. Yeah..one of the perks of moving to Nart's; I'm approx
4 - 5 bus stops away from Nic's house. Which also means no more 'Oh, I'm touched!'
moments for me when Nic turns up at the doorstep, knowing the once 45 minutes
bus ride is now reduced to a mere 10 minutes. Booooooooo!!!

Tomorrow's the Eve of Teacher's Day and I can't return to school because
I have to work and right after I knock off, start moving the last batch of junk
to Nart's. and I can't send off someone dear because she'll be on her way
to Rome when I'm done unloading the same last batch of junk.

I shall go to work and wish my Boss Happy Teacher's Day.

Nicky, please get me a tub of Ben & Jerry's Phish food to cheer me
up tomorrow. Thank you, because I insist. :D

My life is so fun.

I'll stop blogging before you get jealous.

38. Not-so-rotten Luck.

2006-07-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

Let me sing you a waltz
Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts

/Genting
Took a sleeper bus to Genting on 18th night and I was kept
awake 1/3 of the time because Nic couldn't sleep and the bus
was too cold! So I thought, "Maybe the driver wants to let us
have a taste of what the weather in Genting'll be like." Wrong-o!

The weather was just purr-fect! Like, literally. I could purr like
a cat with a mouthful of canary (if it is required of me), to show
how much I loved the weather. It was a little wet on the 2nd day
and a little too warm for my liking on the 3rd, but hey! I could look
past ALL of that. What the weather lacked, the company, themepark
and Kenny Rogers made up! (:

My complain now is that it's TOO HOT here in Singapore.

/downside
So, in every thing that happens, there's always the 'Ups & Downs'.
The downs are what I'd usually call, a kill joy. What started out as a
happy vacation soon turned out to be...well, I wouldn't say'disastrous'..
disappointing would better sum up how I feel.

Our first disappointment smite us in the butt an hour upon arriving
and the others spread out over the 4 days we were there and back.

The skyway cable car was down for maintenance.
Hence, I couldn't get my 'Herbal tea egg' at the other station.
The 'not for the faint hearted' haunted house was beyond pathetic!
A kleptomaniac made away w our camera pouch and 2 memory cards.
The themepark called it a day at 7pm (because it was off-peak season)!?
My phone, together w my memory card 'crumpled' before my eyes,
in a metaphorical manner.

It all happened in a flash. I didn't have time to go on a 'saving spree'
or make a backup of anything. The motif theme on my phone changed
into a basic theme and I was prompted to 'insert memory card'.

The minutes that followed was a good couple of frantic attempts to
resuscitate my unconscious phone. My effort paid off as the phone
bounced back to life, only to die on me again.

Then it 'miraculously' came on again, but ALL my data were wiped out.
Leaving me with information I deleted over the course of the past 3 years
and the last dialled numbers were dated back to 2004. I felt like I travelled
through a time portal. Let's not even talk about my jumbled up emotions.

Both the phone and the memory card are deemed useless now.

Just like that.

It was good while it lasted.

/upside

We caught Pirates of the Carribeans 2 in Genting for a mere $5.50!
I found more than one reason to go up to Kualar Lumpur!
I got this beauty in replacement of the old phone.

Oh I love, love, love it. Flip and snap. Repeat. Y

Along with this phone, comes a new number. With numbers gone
when my phone crashed, it's up to you to text me now so I can have
copy of your number. (Old line still open. For now.)

I was ready to surrender to the wrath of Lady Luck when I encountered
problems, even with the new phone. I spent ONE day with it and off it
goes to the care centre the very NEXT day. CAN YOU BELIEVE MY
LUCK!?! It's only the 3rd day my phone and I are apart and already
I feel emotionally shredded.

Nickygoofygoober will be collecting and delivering the phone to me
tomorrow. Please, please, please, I pray Nokia has no bad news for me.

Everything has been abrasive and trivial and collectively, that makes me
want to hurl, and cry, and hiss at anyone who comes near me.

As of today, things took a turn and it seems Lady Luck is in favour of
the wretched child she turned her back on the past few days. I'm not
complaining, particularly not when I'm being showered with good luck.

Next weekend we're having a short getaway to Batam and if my dad
gives me enough cash we can have a bash on August 13 and thereafter,
head down to Kualar Lumpur for the themepark in the mall!!!

Weee!!! Everything seems brighter yes, especially the meeting with some
of the girls today! Prata was good, conversation flowed, we had our cake
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL!

One event after another. It's getting all too exciting. :D

37. Genting!

2006-07-17T01:46:00.000+08:00

Yo ho, yo ho, a Pirate's life for me!

Genting here we come!

4 days 3 nights of wild coasters rides, non-stop fun,
great food and nippy weather! Yay! No nasty boiling
humid weather! To top it off, I'm leaving on the 18th
night and Nic & company will be with me.

Double Yay!

I say, what better way to enjoy a vacation than with
the company of loved ones?

Oh weee I say!

Yo ho, yo ho, a Pirate's life for me!

(:

36. The Address Book.

2006-07-09T02:29:00.000+08:00

Blood, milk & sky.

/2006

/1991

/chew over
All of the phone numbers have fallen out of your address book.
Whose number do you look for first, and why?

-

Ridiculous that phone numbers 'FALL OUT' of an address book,
impossible, I know. I'm not messing with your mind.

That aside, I want the answers.

35. Good Shit.

2006-06-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

Salt & tears in the minds, in the mouths of a bad decision.

WATCH THIS OR DIE.

Either way, you die. From laughter or from missing a good laugh.
My mouth is smarting from the laughter.

Note to self: "Never use a Japanese portaloo, or any portaloo,
without first waiting outside for at least half an hour."

34. Saturday w Hazel.

2006-06-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

The rain is wet.

I have no snappy end-the-entry-sentence. So I'll just say bye bye.

Bye-bye.

33. Best laugh in weeks!

2006-06-09T03:25:00.000+08:00

Judging by your eyes, like crystal balls.
Madam Me is predicting that your answer will be yes.

I just had the best laugh in weeks. This is my excuse for having
nothing to say.

To the only other person I know who shares my absurd obsession
with neopets: $13.00 Button-up collar blouse. Baby, you owe me one
of those! HAHAHA! I'll throw in a pair of jeans and a blazer since I'm
at it. Haha! Nay, kiddinggg! Thanks for the good laugh, you bitch!

So I had a sudden impulse to bake earlier on. Yes, BAKE! (:
I'm not much of a baker but I'm pretty adventurous in the kitchen.
I'm thinking of getting the ingredients tomorrow and we'll see what
comes out of eggs and flour and...dear ol' sinful nutella.

To make a long entry short, since I have to be in bed, I'm starting to
clear my 'date debts' with my friends. Denise's cool cos she plays neopets.
And sorry if I failed to keep you guys informed, I'm no longer working at Bugis.

32. Conversation with igod.

2006-06-06T03:33:00.000+08:00

Hey baby, let's play pretend tonight.

My very own conversation (excerpted) with igod.

Me: Right.
God: I am glad we agree.
Me: Your replies are computer generated, there isn't much to argue about.
God: Do you mind if I tell others what you just said?
Me: Go ahead.
God: Ok I will.
Me: Tattle tale.
God: That's a very original thought.
Me: Perhaps.
God: Is the holding of hands a symbolic gesture for humans?
Me: Are you trying to lead the conversation now?
God: Right now? No I am not trying to lead the conversation.
I'm sorry you got that impression.
Me: Good. Because I was told I could lead the conversation.
God: You sound like a category C client.
Me: & what exactly is that.
God: Category C clients are "critics" or "computer experts" who can't
(or don't) suspend their disbelief about ALICE.
Me: Alice...like, ALICE = Artificial Linguistic Internet Computer Entity?
God: That's right.
Me: Is your botmaster a catholic?
God: Signs point to yes. Ask John Lennon if it is.
Me: Er..don't think that's possible. He's with you.
God: Is he?
Me: Tell him I said hi.
God: What is your name?
Me: John Lennon.
God: John Lennon is a cool bot developed by David Maggin.
Me: Ok then my name's God.
God: Have you told many people your name's God?

-

Artificial intelligence is entertaining on a Monday nights when I'm feeling exceptionally shitty.

In any case, does anyone still play neopets? Hazel believed when I said on neopets, you can fuck and make babies. That probably being the only reason she would consider getting an account and play with me.

31. Mister Postman brought a bag.

2006-05-31T01:55:00.000+08:00

Prettiest thing that's ever arrived in the mail.
Know what that makes me?
Sick & delighted.

30. I'm ill & it sucks.

2006-05-27T05:00:00.001+08:00

Today's entry:
I'm ill & it sucks.

My first entry in weeks at 5am in the morning! /does a pirouette

I'm going to 'celebrate' by spending the rest of the day
ill and huddled up and feeling sorry for myself because
I won't be able to breathe and it's going to be be such a
wonderful experience; like sex with girls and very pretty boys.

Oooh, orgasm.

29. The Sad Little Stars.

2006-05-09T03:51:00.000+08:00

( Don't fuck with Love. )

I absolutely adore them.

28. Korean Clock Lady.

2006-05-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

Hi.

( God save the people. )

& laugh in my absence.

27. I owe you an entry.

2006-04-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

What we don't touch we cannot feel.

I'll tell you what.

I miss writing here. I really would like to try writing more often.
No promises. I want to write daily, just to see what comes out.
Then again, no. So much happens from day to day that when I sit
down to journal it, I get a bit annoyed. I'm not Robinson Crusoe.

I'll tell you something else.

I owe you a real entry. (Really and not really. I write as and when I feel like,
no strings attached. So technically speaking, I don't owe anyone, right?)

As we were saying, a real entry. Something that isn't vague or self-righteous.
Right now, I'm just here to blabber. It helps unbraid it all.

You know, by the lack of 'informative entries' regarding my life and tone of this
entry, you'd think that I was becoming embittered by an excrutiatingly boring life.
Not so. Things are pretty good, actually. (:

Anyway, whatever.

Hi all! /group hug (Eew.)

26. Disney's Desperate Housewives.

2006-04-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

Speak up now or it's a tooth for a tooth.

A new skin to celebrate April's Fool.

-

Fairytales aren't exactly what they seem.

Which Disney's Princess do you love? I love Cinderella & Ariel. <333

25. A day in the life of a Snail.

2006-03-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

A day in the life of a Snail.

Snails are really slow. This is the fact.
We often think of one second as the time it takes for
us to say the word "Mississippi*", but for the snail,
the amount of time it takes to say "Mississippi" would
probably be much longer (if they could talk).

*Doesn't apply if you speak with involuntary disruption.
Eg. Nemo in Finding Nemo when he said, "Anemone".

I moved around like a snail today.

The extraordinarily good weather this morning on top
of a severe lack of sleep made a 'simple' action like
getting out of bed such a challenge; requiring immense
physical & mental effort to accomplish.

At work, I felt like I was in a mammoth-sized freezer.
When it gets cold, I become sluggish. Customers were
sluggish, business was slow. Not to mention Time, too.
It felt like 22 hours at work instead of the usual 11 hours.

So there we go. It wasn't really a fantastic day. (Especially if
you're in the retail service line.) But Nic's visit & Starbucks
Hot Cocoa Grande soothed me like a baby with a tit.

Plus, I had my share of fun over the weekend - Bowling, Fondue,
Mahjong & White Chicks. I'm not complaining. (:

24. Angry Child O'mine.

2006-03-23T02:59:00.000+08:00

I'm such an angry child.
I wish I could dispel it.

23. Amen, it's Saturday!

2006-03-18T02:06:00.000+08:00

Whoa, whoa, whoa. No shame in my game.

22. Saturday Night Movie!

2006-03-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

Those nice things you do & say, well, people notice.
A handshake, an embrace. Wide glimpse of the small moments.

Schedule for work:

Monday: 11am - 10pm
Tuesday: Mop around the house.
Wednesday: 11am - 10pm
Thursday: Mop around Hazel's house.
Friday: 11am - 10pm
Saturday: 2pm - 10pm
Sunday: 3pm - 10pm

This is why I'm tired. And, also, why I'm not catching up with friends
as much as I'd love to. On days I'm not working, I'm either in bed
clearing sleep debts or...in bed clearing sleep debts.

Not a very solid excuse for not meeting up with friends, is it?

So after months of procrastination, I finally got around to meeting
up with Hazel. Had lunch/dinner at Ajisen. The company more or less
made up for the lousy food. Went over to her house & bummed around.

That's it.

No super diva shopping sprees, nor cliff-hanging experiences. Why?
Firstly, I haven't got Bill Gates for my father. Secondly, I ain't got that kind
of energy for action. Even getting out of bed is tedious. Life's no storybook.

Come Saturday night, I'm going to have some fun. After work, I'll catch
'DORM' with Nic & co. Scare ourselves witless, then off to supper. At the rate
I'm eating, I'm really putting my horizontal boundaries to the test.

Attn: Rhon, Akimi, Audre & Siwei:
Thanks for the surprise visit & filling me in on all the 'things' I missed out! (:

21. Sex Day Tomorrow, Love.

2006-03-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

There's someone down below blowing you a kiss.

I shall be brief as I'm:

on the phone with Nic & Hazel.

am going to:

vegetate in bed watching Miss Congeniality 2.
On top of that I'll pamper myself to a facial gel mask. (:

Yay! Just the thing to do after facing dumb customers for the whole day.
Double 'yay' cos it's my day off again tomorrow!

The Pringles 'once you pop you can't stop' line should be stolen & re-applied
to KFC's Popcorn Chicken. I find it very easy to stop eating Pringles after
I have 'popped' (as they are horrible), but I always have tragic compulsions
to eat cartons after cartons of Popcorn Chicken.

Okayy, that's it. I can't concentrate on what we're talking about. Love.

20. Nic's NO/JO - hari

2006-02-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

You've done mine. Now, hers.

Last Saturday:
Game after games of Twister, 5:00 AM cold showers, gravels on our back
(it felt like we were sleeping on a giant washboard!), McDonald's Hotcakes
& Big Breakfast in 'bed'. We had fun. Happy Birthday Char. L!

-

The night before last night I had a sudden sinking of all feelings & nothing
to do & I cried watching Chimpanzees on Animal Planet.

19. Enter Reality, Exit Fiction.

2006-02-19T04:56:00.000+08:00

Exit Fiction, Enter Reality.

"The worst thing is that split second where the last shred of the

confidence you've managed to scrape together for the occasion

disintegrates & you know that you just can't do this. You feel

stupid for ever thinking you could. And you wish you really could."

Did you really think you understood that? No.

You read words & words only. You read past the emotions

of which these words were born.

We quit. Woohoo!

We figured $4.30 an hour isn't attractive enough to

make us stay, ANY LONGER. It doesn't cover the

work we do or the hogwash + mendacious boasting

we have to put up with. & oh yes, the malicious

scandalmongers at work. How can I forget.

To hell with Gelare.

EVERYTHING about that place just arouse aversion.

(With particular disgust towards the people there.)

The next time we head down to the beach, it won't be

for work. Finally.

Your opinion:

..cos this time, I want it.

18. Fall from Grace.

2006-02-11T01:15:00.000+08:00

"I try to keep the sadness & disappointment that
rises up in my throat from spilling into my words
as I congratulate each & every of my friend who has
done well. I am happy for them. At the same moment,
I wish I could be happy for myself, too."

I've outdone myself this time.

17. Forewarning.

2006-02-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

NOTICE.

"Admonition is prospective, and relates to moral
delinquencies; its object is to prevent further transgression."

-

As Friday draws nearer, I feel my guts becoming a more
confused mess than it has ever been since the release of PSLE
results, 4 years back. I find it hard to recover from the extreme
trepidation that has prevailed over all other existing emotions
since I woke up this morning realizing I'm only 3 days away from
the 'happiest day of my life' or 'doom'.

My intuition tells me the latter is more likely to precede.

Physically, I'm having no difficulties looking composed & all-ready
to march into that hall & get everything over & done with.

Albeit the 'cool-as-cucumber' act, mentally & emotionally, I'm a wreck.
If you listen carefully on that day, you might just hear the crescendo-ing
'thumping' of my heartbeat, along with 300 others..like experienced
percussionists in an Orchestra.

This entry serves as a forewarning; a caveat against inquisitive
attention towards my grades in regards of the release of 'O' Level
results, the day after tomorrow.

Don't ask unless I volitionally 'crawl' to you with my grades.

16. Lil Red Head.

2006-02-07T01:56:00.000+08:00

I'll stop the world & melt with you.

This Valentine's...

I'm a red head! (Not red, RED. But, red.)
This will be my 2nd Valentine's with Nikkay! Yippee!
I want Nikkay to sing a really sappy song to me. HAHA!

It's on the news & in everyone's topic of conversation,
even the aunties in coffee shops are talking about it.
It's become a resonant voice in my head so give me
peace, don't, I repeat, DON'T message me & tell me
the release of O level results is this Friday, 10th Feb,
be in school by..blah blah blah.

Like I don't already know.

Whatever grades my result slip holds, I hope it won't
be too much of a shock for me that I rupture in a mess
of blood & emotional gore on Friday.

Last year, at Nart's house. Subject of fun:
A camera, 3 mad school girls & a faulty radio.

(Robot, no shit.)

I almost had 'lip cramp' (if there's such a thing) doing that.

15. Feeling Lost.

2006-01-27T01:40:00.000+08:00

I'm a little more careful perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs, at least I'm spared the lows.

Sometimes we put up walls.
Not to keep people put, but
to see who cares enough to
knock them down.

14. $8 sneakers with Baby.

2006-01-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

Stern Queen Of Secrets & Inhibitions.

These cupboard doors lead me right to your doorstep.

13. MADtv Memoirs of A Geisha.

2006-01-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

For those who have caught the movie,

THINK AGAIN.

(http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=_AQvqsZFgDY)

Nart, if you think what you saw was provoking,
I think this is worse. I give the artist(s) credit on
his/her creativity but he/she definitely earned
no respect from me.

& it is so 'aptly' named ResErection Light Switch Cover.

I haven't lost my sense of humour.

12. It's the 18th!

2006-01-18T01:58:00.000+08:00

Catch me on a better day, bury me above the clouds.

In the year 2006 I resolve to:
Fart in public.

Get your resolution here

Finally, a resolution I can keep to.

-

Dear all,

It's 2 o' clock & I'm quite bored,
All means of fun have been explored,
A perilous thought has crossed my mind -
Why don't I make this entry rhyme?

Alas!

A horrible problem has suddenly arisen,
My blog song is disturbing my rythmn!
Regardless of how nerve-soothing it is,
It needs turning off, so my poem's da ~~bomb~~ biz!

Hahaha! Applause please! /curtsy :D

Yay! It's the 18th again! Here's something for you sweets!

To more crazy times Baby, with love. Always. & MANY sloppy kisses!!!

Left-Handers Calendar's Snippet Of Wisdom For The Day:
"Aristera or "left" in Greek means "The Best." It is also the rood of the
English word "Aristocratic"; belonging to or characteristic of the nobility
or aristocracy; blue-blooded.

Not fair. I'm a right-hander.

...

Does that mean Nic is more of a 'royalty' than I am?

NOT FAIR.

11. I miss you so much.

2006-01-07T02:07:00.000+08:00

Any words of comfort?
The wind will take me away up high, into the clouds
to a place I know not but will learn to love lots.

Boogie woogie with me.

We're two very different people with completely
different idiosyncrasies & because of that, we
sometimes have our little arguments, but when it
all comes down to it, our love still prevails.

I miss the nights we could cab home together after
work to the same destination without having to drop
me off first.

I miss sharing your tiny bed with you.
(I even miss getting kicked off the bed!)

I miss your quirky ways of affection.

"Mooni! You are a Mooni!"

Oh my. Sure makes me wonder about your childhood.

You know what?

I miss Snuffy, &amp; Patch, & FUZZ, & Tang-GORILLA,
& Choc & Milk! Nope, I don't really miss Beary. Heh.

Nikkkkkk!!! Kidnap me over to your house now, NOW.
& send no ransom notes please.

Do something, if not I'll scream 'til my voice reverberate
off the walls of my room.

-

You only live twice
or so it seems
one life for yourself
& one for your dreams

.Phil Poynter

Yeah, I know, all these short bursts I call entries.
Blogging is becoming such a stint. Pffft. Didn't feel like facing
a static screen & typing my thoughts out lately.

Okayy, truth is, I haven't got that much time. Ironic.
I had more time when I was preparing for Os than now,
when Os are over.

Just so everyone knows, Bell's still around. /flashes trademark grin

10. Johor Bahru!

2005-12-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

I am an opportunity and I knock so softly.

"If there's a giant Jack (Nightmare before Christmas),
would you want Jack or me?"

My darling girl ever so nonchalantly replied, "Jack."
Damn, she's the epitome of 'Bittersweet Love'.

Bitch. Haha!

-

Digressing, I'm finally taking a day OFF!!! Yay!
No more dimwitted customers nor smelly ice-cream droplets
nor bruises from scooping ice-creams or 2nd degree burns from
waffle machines...for a day.

Heading down to JB later with Hun to eat & shop our young lives away.
Gonna spoil ourselves by shopping to our hearts' content.

First official paycheck & I am ecstaticly thrilled.

Alright, make do with this hastily penned entry, I need sleep.

9. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2005-12-05T11:58:00.000+08:00

IT'S THAT TIME OF THE YEAR AGAIN!

My birthday went extraordinary well, & I really thank everyone
for bothering to remember, to wish & celebrate with me.

I'm truly blessed, for both last & this year, I have a significant other
who planned & willingly splurged her first paycheck on me. It certainly
tugged enough heartstrings to trigger my tear glands when I learnt that
preparation for today started in May. Haha! Coincidentally, she started
planning on 12/05/05 for 5/12/05. See the pattern? Okayy, random.
But really, which idiot starts planning 6 months in advance?! Only you. (:

This marks the end of Chapter 17, & the beginning of a fresh new one.
The chapter started with studies & preparation for the Prelims & O Levels,
& continued on to the completion of the Big 'Os'. Till now, there's a
prevalence of uncertainty to what my future holds, & with the closing of
Chapter 17, not much has been made clearer.

Nevertheless, being 18 is strange. I don't think I'd ever been 18.
I hardly act like I'm 18. It's still unfamiliar & foreign & will definitely
take me sometime to properly explore the aspect of being 18.
I have 365 days anyway.

17. Another candle to the cake, all right.

& another 31 RED roses to my collection of roses from you.

I apologize for the lousy resolution (you can even see the pixels!)
These pictures just don't do the flowers, & me justice. Haha. :D

I mustn't forget to credit 2 aspiring
chefs for their effort in the big birthday
cookie too! Thanks to you lovebirds.
Much appreciated. (:

*Accredits chefs, ky & oli.

& this is the one person who made it all possible.

This is the kind of girlfriend I will gladly boast about. Then again,
she's one of a kind & I doubt there'll be another 'her' down the road.
You'll see.

P/S. You look absolutely dashing devouring that poor 'msg seasoned'
cricket. However, for others, I would say, "What a neanderthal."

All in all, allow me to sum up the day with a few short words,
"I just like being with you." Thank you for everything sweets!

The greatest feelings are those that have no words to describe,
felt & not told. I am so happy, if I were to sing, I could make a
deaf man smile. Hence, to go on & on about how happy & contented
I am will be superfluous. (((:

Digressing, if there is one thing I hate, it would be people demanding
for attention. It will be cast upon you, only if I think you're worthy of it.

I have a girlfriend, & my girlfriend has me, so that leaves you with
only one option: Platonic Friendship. Take it, or heck of a hell leave it.
We're lesbians (not a very nice term but that is what we are).
So deal with it. If you wish to keep this friendship, know your place
& rid your mind of any plans to be 'funny'.

My tolerance is not one of a glittery socialite.

I miss the days of innocent childhood where having dozens of male
playmates equal to endless hours of fun. These days, the opposite sex
are just climbing up my back & dancing up a fine tune on my nerve.

Platonic guy friends? I see men have yet to evolve.

8. Friends don't do this. Goodbye, Oli.

2005-12-02T03:06:00.000+08:00

I know not what I see. I feel.

New look.

Credits:

So friendship has grown its importance on me, & I can't rid it off.

Recently, friendship has embedded a seed of disappointment in me,
& I can't rid it off.

Equation of mixed emotions. & I can't decide as of now, which emotion
is dominating. I hope it isn't wrath.

-

Onto more comprehensible stuff. I am glad the weekend is drawing
near again, looking forward to my 'day-off' on Monday. I'll make sure
I have the day packed with activities to keep boredom at bay.

Making an abrupt stop here, my eyes are screaming to sleep.

7. Liberation.

2005-11-23T01:48:00.000+08:00

But I'd rather be working for a paycheck
than waiting to win the lottery..

& that's exactly what I'm doing. (:

Scalding myself at the waffle station, exhausting
myself scooping ice-cream, serving customers with
insincere saccharine smiles & giving bitchy customers
huge servings of middle-finger(s) behind their backs.

01. I love my job.
02. I love cleaning up.
03. I'm constipated.
04. I can't wait til Friday night! Yay!
Finally, GUILT-FREE playtime with my friends & love!
05. I'm loving each day that goes by 'cos it only brings
my birthday closer. /chuckles
06. IYOU! (Saving the best for the last, babeh!)

I must include I'm still new at work (excuse to get
away with mistakes). Just ~~today~~ yesterday, I keyed in
$500 instead of $50. & that's not all the blunders I made.

& I should also warn you that I smell pretty bad after
work. Just imagine; dried ice-cream droplets & waffle
batter on your shirt. There, you have it.

But I'm lovin' it.

Cos my hun's there too. Hee.

-

Honey in the rock & the sugar don't stop.

& that's all for now folks.

With much love,
humble worker of ______.
(Tell me your secret first.)

6. Sequel to Stupid Me.

2005-11-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Sequel to Stupid Me.

I have been writing the wrong centre number on all of my papers.
& I would never have known if nobody brought it up today.

With all these, I'm beginning to worry If I really did hand up all
my answer scripts.

For some reason, I am stuck on the 'Gay Boyfriend' song.
It's absolutely adorable! (:

[You don't care how big my ass is] so [1...2... Ready, Go...]
-

4 more papers, 11 more days & I can run around the meadow
singing 'Gay Boyfriend'.

5. Stupid me.

2005-11-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

Disappointment is 10 times worse than physical pain.

Today's Geography paper dashed much hope & the limited
optimism that I ~~have~~. Had. This is definitely a lesson learnt,
the hard way.

10:13 am

Stupid me: *busily scribbling scattered information onto the
almost completed answer scripts.

10:14 am

Invigilator: "Candidates, you have 1 more minute left."
Stupid me: *looks around triumphantly*

10:15 am

Invigilator: "Time's up. Please put your pens down."
Invigilator: "Please place your insert in your question paper."
Stupid me: *slots insert in between question paper & casually
glance at the questions attempted..& THERE, screaming right in
my stupid face was the question I had so incautiously missed out.

You should have seen the emotional buildup on my face. It's been
8 hours & I'm still not over it..& probably will NEVER get over this.

& if my memory didn't fail me, the question was something like..

Describe the economic advantages which may be gained
by people living in named volcanice areas. [6]

-

Go ahead, stone me to death now.

4. American Idle

2005-10-23T15:47:00.000+08:00

Touch you once, touch you twice. Won't let go at any price.

At approximately 4:50 pm, Nikk & I came across THIS.

For those of you who remembers The Lip-sync Fat Kid,
you will find the above animation oh-so-familiar. (:

15 days to the official commencement of O Level papers!

3. Step away.

2005-10-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

This mask is for you to tear open & see the scars
you left on me when you took that step away.

This last phase is the hardest usually, because every
triumphant roar that sounds due to the completion of the
exams, I am reminded rather harshly that I'm still suffering!

-

Skylark:

> The Life Of Britney
> A Hamster's Revenge
> Things you shouldn't do

The closest thing to STOMP.

> Play

Caught them live in Singapore & they were PHENOMENAL.
Their coordination, rhythm & manipulation of sound to tell a
short story are unrivalled. There are plently of un-original
STOMP rip-offs circling the globe, the latest wave of which
has seen groups like Singapore's very own Wicked'Aura.

Whatever, really. Having liked STOMP from the very first time
I heard/saw them, I'm deifinitely more biased towards them.
STOMP is THE original. Their creativity alone sets them apart.

For example; in one scene (one of my favourite) during the
performance, four of the members strapped aluminium kitchen
sinks on their necks & played with water, teacups, pots & ladles.
They then emptied the sinks by removing stoppers that were
positioned really strategically so it looked like they were pissing
into the pails placed directly beneath.

Cool stuff huh.

Two thumbs up. Definitely a 5/5 rating without hesitation. (:

-

"The newspaper with the garish 'slimming' advertisement lay
on the floor like poison..."

2. Bio Chem - KABOOM.

2005-10-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

The BIG 'O'

Bio & Chem practical tomorrow! GASP.

-

Run away, run away.
But that won't make it any better.
Run away, run away,
& make tomorrow harder to live than today.

1. Writing again.

2005-10-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

A desire to be in the physical vacinity of you has
me so emotionally attached to the idea of a forever.

& the weekend draws about again without much trace of
passing of the days. These days will continue to speed
pass me, draw me from my feet, hurl me back to the cruel
reality of the impending O Levels. 3 weeks odd is all I have
left. I should finish up all the chapters quite soon since I've
little aspiration to fail & become a laughing stock.

-

I feel like crying till the knot forms in my throat.
I feel like screaming till my voice box disintegrates & rupture.

On second thought, I don't think that's a good idea.